Life, Love, I finally have an answer for one..

Current Mood: Im pretty good
Current Music: Ryan Cabrera - On My Way Down

Well, I've been doing a lot of thinking. I came to the conclusion that I shouldnt be depressed about it. If I am so confident that I do love her then we will meet again... I never really talked in detail about what happened when I danced with her.
I really screwed up because I got very nervous and couldnt look into her eyes.. I know I should have taken the moment and payed more attention to her, but I didn't.. Why? I guess because Im an IDIOT! Well I did ask her to dance though, so I guess I did something smart. Although I had to be forced into it and be motivated. I seriously did not think I had the guts to do it.. But I did. The dance was pretty short but It seems to me like it was long..

I realized that my last post kinda gave away who it was to some people. But I doubt anyone of them read this. I know she will know its her if she reads this, I don't know how she will feel afterwards though...

It feels good to finally have an answer though...

Now that I have an answer, I will be able to be more confident when I meet her. Although I am sort of afraid of her father who kinda looked like he didnt like me very much. But maybe its just me..

That was my love question answered. Now I have to get my Life question answered.

Its very difficult for me to choose from Graphic Design and Business.
I know many peopel say I draw well and I should do Graphic Design. I did originally want to. I used to draw a lot, but now I barely draw. I think that drawing has turned into more of a hobby for me now.
Then there is Business. Either Real Estate or Insuarance. I know if I go into Insuarance I will automaticly get all my fahter's clients. I have good skills for persuading people to go my way. I used to be quiet, but now I have changed a lot. Real Estate was what my fahter had suggested...

Its a tough call because this determines what I will be doing for the rest of my life..

Hopefuly I will have an answer for this question soon.

Well thats all for now..
-Ku

Bad things and Good things

Current Mood: Ok I guess..
Current Music: Raghav - No I

Well, The party went really well. I did my dance and everyone loved it. I gave my speech and Ieveryone loved it also. I did well in the begining of the party. Anyways.. I met her again. I talked to her a little, I even slow danced with her. I know I did the best I could, since I am very weak when It comes to really speaking to her. I still don't know if she feels the same. It keeps bugging me that I will have to wait to see her again. She lives far away from me, I feel very depressed because I still didnt get to finsih talking with her. I know, I know.. I should have done it in the party, But I just can't... I don't know what is wrong with me. Before it was her thoughts that kept coming to me, and I would go crazy just thinking about her. Now her face and thoughts keep coming to me. I keep thinking of things that I could have done better... Hopefuly, I will see her again. .

SENIOR EXIT IS OVER!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Im GRRRREEEAAT.
Current Music: Raghav - "C'mn"

Im doing great now. Basicly I am done with my senior year now. The rest of the eyar is gonna be a breeze. I am gonna do good on the exam anyways. I can finally relax and not worry so much for once. lol. Well atleast not about school.

My parent's 25th Anniversary party is coming around the corner on Saturday. Its gonna be a blast. Since Im likely to be hosting it. Me and my brother are but its not in concrete yet, although I know we will do the best job. I can't wait till it comes. But now that senior exit is over, the days are going to go by in light speed. lol.

I have the whole dance "Main Aisa Kyoon hoon" memorized I can do it all man. Yeah, I can. I got it in my head, when the song comes on, I just wanna do it. The only problem is that I might run out of room to do the whole backwards moon walk. But Il get around it.

Well in other news. I still keep thinking of what I will say to her, I just cant think of it. Because I hope I can even speak. But what if I say something really stupid and make a fool of myself in front of her?.... Man, atleast Il say something heh. All I know is that Im going to break the glass between us. Im gonna atleast get a sylable out to her. All I have to say is HI lol.. But we will see when I confront her again. What If I never do?.. Well then I guess I will keep waiting..

I could travel around the world
Search the seven seas and more
But their glory would be lost
Cause your what Im looking for
So baby c'mon, c'mon
Cause my heaven on earth is in your eyes.

- Raghav - "C'mon"

well thats all for now fus! lol.

Peace,
Ku

Ku is the man PERIOD. lol

Current Mood: Aight
Current Music: Koi Mil Gaya - Its Magic

Hey I am doing really well, I worked really hard on my product and I am almost done! I just ahve to fix minor typos and mistakes. Then I am planning on going to Kinkos to get the people to help me make my cover look ku. They might be able to help me a lot with my User''s Guide.
I gave my presentation infront of a camera. LOL for some reason I was nervous, But when I did it in Mrs. Miller's class I am fine. But I watched it and I looked handsome as usualy. :D lol j/k. Actually I thought my hair style didn't look good... But oh well. I am still a hero lol.

Well I am going to Gastonia on Saturday for Asht's birthday party. It will be fun, The whole family is going to be there. We might go to CCs also. Then on Sunday we are going to Nithin mamas house, It will be a lot of fun to go there after such a long time. I will get to see Bhavin Bhai after a long time and Hithu bhai also. I haven't seen them in a while. Also Dolly Didi, Masi, Ria, Tinu Didi, and Asht will come with us on Sunday night. They are going to stay till Wednesday. Its gonna be so much fun. Well this is a short one.

Well I realized that I only have atleast 40 days till I graduate!

CLASS OF 2005! June 10th BABY!
Peace,
Ku

Chordna Chordna Chordna Re!

Current Mood: Im Aight.
Current Music: Simple Plan - I'd Do Anything

Well im here, I don't think this plan is going to work. It's strange. I hate talking about it with people but I feel fine writing it here. Im thinking of her even more now, Something tells me Im going to meet her again soon, hopefuly I will be able to say something this time. Because I want my voice back. I wake up and I think of her, I think about what I would say if I would confront her again.. I can't get her out of my head. I don't even know her name. But I just think of her. I have no idea what is happening to me.
Yesterday night I wanted to rent this game and my father wouldn't take me and didn't even let my brother take me. I got a little angry asusual but I thought about her and I just lost my anger.. Disapeared. Man I feel more in controll. Im slowly declining from my short temper. I don't know what to thank for this, My will power? or something else? Maybe just thinking of her makes me want to change myself?
I even told my mother, what am I crazy? I didn't tell her much. I just told her that I "liked" her. Right after that we got into an accident.. Is this a sign? If so then what does it say? That I shouldnt do anything? I don't care. All I know is that I can't explain whats happening to me. But don't worry we are all fine. It was a minor accident some Ford car came from the side and shifted the car body to the side a little. A light is broken and the Wind shield wipers don't work. The passenger door doesn't open either. We are fine though. That was my car though, I guess there is a chance of getting a new one now. :D. Maybe a nice Red car.

I took the placement test finally. I got a low score on Math. I screwed up a little on the Reading Comprehension too. I got a high grade on Sentence Structure. I can't retake it until a year after. Im in college now though! Finally the pressure of College is out of my head.

I have almost perfectly memorized "Main Aisa Kyoon Hoon". Just a few steps Im working on. I don't know if we are doing "Gori Gori" but It still in my head and I know all the steps. Me, Dharmesh bhai, Priyesh and Tushar are going to do "Aslam bhai". Im Aslam Bhai so its going to be fun doing the facial expressions. lol. I want to practice it so bad.

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

Well thats all I can say.

-Peace,
Ku